OMG...one of the craziest days of my life happened in an audition! After this ordeal, I knew I was either completely insane or I had found what I would be doing for the rest of my life because this experience should have traumatized me for life...LOL! Ready...Here we go!
So in the beginning of this journey, my mother, bless her heart, started to look for opportunities for me to gain more experience with modeling. She found an ad online that an agency was looking for a family or family members to shoot a commercial as guest at an amusement park. We had to drive over 2 hours to the audition, but it seemed like a great opportunity.
When we pulled up to the building; there were people walking in from all over the place, Ohio, Illinois, Wisconsin, women,men, children, teenager; Black, White, Asian, you name it they were there. We were immediately a little intimidated as we didn't expect so many people to be there all at once. As we approached the stairs a young adult, maybe about 19, came out of the building swearing and really upset. He and his mother started to argue, he started to turn red and she said, lets just go "F" it, just get in the car! I was really nervous now! My mom double checked the address to make sure we were in the right place. As we walked through the door, a girl was storming out crying!
We sat in the lobby; hoping that the big building we walked into held a counseling center in it as well. That's when a lady came out dressed in black and yellow stripes and polka dots, she had on huge white glasses and a big hat with a flower on it. She looked like a character from a kid's show; we named her The Bee Lady. We all looked at one another like, what in the world was happening! She told me how pretty I was, handed me a script, explained the process and described the scene and went back into her office.
Everyone needed to line up outside of her door. As we lined up, someone came out of her office and told us that she was a B*%#h! That she was crazy and this was a waste of their time; they hadn't driven hours to be abused by a crazy lady! It was like a scene from American Idol Rejects! I immediately started to cry, I couldn't do it. My mom took me to the bathroom and pretty much yelled at me; telling me to pull it together. I just cried harder and grew more hysterical. She then decided we were going to leave; to turn around and drive over 2 hours back home without even trying! She was extremely upset, but so was I! I told her that I was going to stay, I would do it! She said no and demanded I get in the car! I said, "No, if I leave now, I'm never going to do it and I'm always going to be scared". I begged her to let me do it.
As we stood in line, person after person came out upset. Each person went in hoping to please her and after each audition, they walked out almost in tears! After every couple of auditions she would come out and explain what she didn't want, what she would not tolerate and what she expected out of each audition! I just stood their sniffling, hoping to not breakdown again while everyone else was reading over their lines with one another. The most I could do was stand their, I was too upset and nervous to read my lines. OMG, we were next, she asked my mom which of my parents wanted to read with me (my mom's friend was with us and she assumed he was my dad). She was intrigued by "our nationality", saying he looked exotic and how much we looked alike. We both politely thanked her and neither of us corrected her, I just stood their like a statue waiting for my Que. We read the lines as she instructed! Her eyes lit up and she grew excited! She told me to go get my mom. I went out to get her and the three of us stood in front of her desk while she went on and on how we were exactly what she was looking for and how talented I was. She then instructed her assistant to go out and tell everyone else in the waiting room to leave; she had found her family and then...WE NEVER HEARD FROM HER AGAIN!
When we got home my mom googled her reviews, which she has learned to do beforehand, lol. There was review after review after review of people complaining about her, telling about their strange encounters with her, and how she was a complete nutcase...LOL. Now we research every agency thoroughly, ask a bunch of questions, and I learned that every audition isn't going to be a good experience, but after I got through that, every single audition since has been a piece of chocolate cake!
Let's pick up where I left off seeing that my last blogged ended when I just turned 9 and I'm now 13; there's some stuff in between I want to share! (Click HERE to visit the previous post).
After getting more comfortable with a lot of things, my confidence grew, but more than that, my excitement and passion for performing grew. (If I'm being honest, I wasn't that much more comfortable, I just had to try harder to overcome feeling really uncomfortable). So, when my mom was approached for me to do a runway show, I was super excited, yet a itsy, bitsy, teeny, weeny scared! But, I pushed that down, and focused on being excited and tried with all my might to overcome feeling uncomfortable.
During the first rehearsal, I must admit I struggled with overcoming way more than I had anticipated. I couldn't find my strut or my confidence; this was not going like I had imagined it would. Like, where the heck was all the swag I thought I was going to have. I was so nervous that I had decided in my mind that I couldn't do it, I gave up on myself. I walked slowly down the runway with my head down trying to find my courage, but I felt so defeated! When we got in the car, my mom excused me from the show, she said I wasn't ready...I can't tell you how upset that made me; like now I HAD to prove to her and mostly to myself that I was ready! I wasn't the only kid in the show, all of the other kids rehearsed with no problem; they were laughing, dancing and having a good time. I was the only one scared out of my mind! I decided that I just had to fight even harder to find my comfort because I was going to do this NO MATTER WHAT!
The day had come! The show was going to be in the middle of a Women's Expo. I got a little nervous when we got into the dressing room, but I felt like I could keep my nerves under control. And then suddenly things got chaotic, the coordinator was pulled in all different directions, my mom was no where around (she was a vendor at the expo), I wasn't sure what I should be doing or not doing, my nerves started to get out of control. I could feel the tears burning my eyes; and then falling down my cheeks, they started falling so fast, I couldn't stop them. I then started to hyperventilate and completely meltdown. I think I scared everyone because the room got really quite and everyone looked at me as if I was...hyperventilating and having a meltdown LOL! The coordinator told me I didn't have to do the show and started to get my mom, but I stopped her and through my tears, I told here that I wanted to do it; I had to do it! She reluctantly said, "OK" and finished getting everything ready for us to go on stage.
We lined up and when I heard my name called, I was immediately in a zone; no fear whatsoever; it was like something had taken over me! I strutted down the rumway like I owned it, I didn't even notice anyone in the room. I got 1/2 way down the aisle and stopped to do a dance and the audience went wild, "You Go Girl", "Oooo, look at her!". When I got to the end of the aisle, I didn't want to leave; I wanted to do it again; to meltdown, overcome and succeed beyond my imagination!
That day, I learned an important lesson; well a couple of valuable lessons! 1. Never let fear stop you from doing something you really LOVE and 2. Fear is stupid, like it literally makes no sense! I was so afraid all because of something that wasn't even real and although I had so much FEAR, I literally had one of the best experiences of my life...How does that make ANY sense?
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MY FIRST RUNWAY EXPERIENCE!
My name is Makhyli Simpson as you may have already figured! I am currently 13 years old and I am on a journey to become pretty much everything I ever dreamed of being! When I was a toddler, I was excruciatingly shy; like afraid to speak or even be around anyone! My mom said she had never seen a kid so shy! I even struggled with interacting with my extended family and I really think it frustrated my mom a lot.
When I turned 8, I knew I wanted to be a performer despite being really shy I wanted it more than anything! I also knew I couldn't be shy if I was going to be a performer, so I decided to ask my mom for help; I told her that I really wanted to be on television and I needed her help to give me the courage to do it! I think this was like the best news of her life; she knew I was ready to work on not being so shy and she was OVER ready for me to stop being so shy!
Over the next year my mom gave me things to do like ordering my own food at a restaurant, encouraging me to speak up if I needed something, making me pay for my order at the store, taking me around people more often and challenging me to talk to them, I was even signed up for t-ball so I would have to interact with "strangers" on my own etc. In the beginning, I cried, a couple of times, I cried so hard, I hyperventilated! She would pull me aside, talk to me and we'd try again the next day!
Finally when I turned 9 my mom decided that I was ready for a huge step; she took me to a dance studio in my neighborhood to check out their beginner dance classes! I had never done anything like this; I hadn't even danced in front of my mom, but she told me this was the first step to becoming a performer and if I was really serious, I had to find it inside of me to do it! I was really serious, so I walked into that dance studio for my first class and when I walked out; the instructor pulled my mom aside and told her that I was definitely NOT a beginner and recruited me to be on the competitive dance team! I had NEVER danced before, not even for fun around the house and within 45 minutes of walking into my first dance class, I was on a team; I knew then there was no turning back!
That year I was signed to a modeling agency and actually worked on some cool projects; I competed in dance and learned to absolutely LOVE the stage!
First Agency Shoot and Dance Competition at age 9